To be honest, I only really came out today, I’m having such an awful time right now, currently with a male partner, who knew from the start that I’m bi, but recently I’ve developed feelings for a friend and I just couldn’t take it anymore. So I finally plucked up the courage after seeking advice from others, to tell him that I want to explore my sexuality further, so came out as Gay.
But he seems convinced that I’m just “confused, I don’t know what I want, and he knows I’m not gay?!” etc so we are taking a month apart so I can try and figure things out, I know deep down that I’m gay but I just can’t get him to understand how much it hurts to have held it in for so many years.
but the amazing sense of relief I felt was awesome, I completely broke down crying my eyes out when I said it, it’s the first time I’d even admitted it to myself, let alone anyone else.